5-Dec-2006

After an awful Monday (yesterday's blog entry inspired an "Are you okay?" phone call from Mom - that hasn't happened since the hobo gang rape entry in May), Tuesday is indeed brighter.  I spent last night watching The Closer, which I'd never seen before, and I have to say I enjoyed it.  Also, in an attempt to not sit at the office watching television all day, I joined a couple of my cube-buddies in a lunchtime jaunt to the El Torito across the parking lot.  One of them will not shut up about their buffet.  And I laugh every time he starts expounding the virtues of the taco bar. 

Needless to say, I am now in a food coma, and I think a lot of my woes yesterday came from a sharp dip in blood sugar.  I kind of forgot to eat until about 7 PM.  Granted, there was some other shit going on, and, while I try not to let things that are not my problem get to me, they do.  I am a surprisingly sensitive soul.  When one of my friends is going through some shit, I am, too, and I get all the physical symptoms - upset stomach, forgetting to eat, incessant worrying - and said symptoms do nothing to solve the problem.  So, really, why is anyone friends with me?  I also didn't get any writing done yesterday, and it sounds really stupid and pretentious, but when I don't write, my brain devotes its energy to other, less productive things.  It doesn't have to be good writing.  Just an attempt to get something on the page, and I feel better.  It's like vomiting - you kind of dread it, cause you know it's not going to be easy, but doing it is actually a bit euphoric and blurry, then when you're done, there's relief.  Calm. 

Does anyone have Season One of The Shield on DVD?